Thankful Tuesday

Today I started getting frustrated thinking about how I feel like I have so little in my house that it would be nice, for once, to be able to get things that I want. Sure, it's nice to have nice furniture and decorations for your house but is that what's REALLY important? Yeah, it sounds like I'm trying to make myself feel better doesn't it? While that may sound true, it's not. First off, there is absolutely no point at all to go out and buy new furniture when I have young children at home. It would be a huge waste of money. I've also learned the value of family and memories over the past year or so. There's nothing more important in my house than my husband, my kids, and the memories we make here. No amount of new furniture or things can compare to what I have. The greatest joy and my greatest accomplishments involve my walk with the Lord, my relationship with Andy, and the raising of my kids... things that can't be bought. We may not have a home straight out of Better Homes and Gardens but what IS in this house is breathtakingly beautiful... from my point of view as a mother and wife. I made a post months ago about how I wanted to find who I was again. You know who I found? A self absorbed, shallow, unhappy person. It took giving birth to Taylor to knock me down to my lowest point. I was bitter and angry, I was disillusioned about motherhood and was depressed for a period of time. I've lost my car, my home, and almost my marriage those first few years. One key element was missing: Jesus. Sure, I thought about Him now and then... when I felt guilty or had time. After months of trying to find my old self,I found me and boy was I ugly. I no longer do everything to please myself, trampling on anyone around me because I didn't care. I have given my ENTIRE life, heart, and soul to the Lord and into my family and have changed from being one who demands service and complaining about my new role to being the servant and I love it. Some days are challenging to the point of tears but I make it by God's grace. So from now on, with the Lord's help, I will continue relishing and savoring every moment with my family like it's my last; forgetting the material things I thought would make me happy. Children are a heritage of the Lord, a blessing; says the Bible... and I welcome each and every one into my home with open arms and huge heart that has plenty of room for love.

Lord, I get it. I've prayed for patience in the past; multiple times, actually. Be careful what you pray for LoL! I'm still learning about patience by being a mother, wife, and homemaker. Let me be the mother my kids deserve to have and let me be the wife that Andy loves to come home to. Continue to guide me throughout my day, tempering my anger and frustrations when needed. I'm so excited for the future You have in store for me and I'm excited to watch it unfold. In your precious name...